if i had studied some sort of women/fem centered interdisciplinary studies, would i be at Yale right now?
if i had gone to a woman's college would I be at Google/PhD Program/Crazy good art school right now?
if i had focused on studies.............................
i should stop with stupid what ifs.. because this is NOT my home.. this is NOT my permanent dwelling place.
but once in a while..
i feel oh so insignificant. especially in comparison to people younger than i.
what's worse though, is when i feel superior to people older... because i know my superiority/sense of self-worth lies more in worldly things.